A year and a half ago, when God invited me to learn a bit more about what makes the world go round, I was convinced that there was no way I could live in this world, and try to live the Word of God at the same time.
Nope. It was much safer (easier?) to try and avoid any instance where I might be, well, tried. Which basically meant any and all interactions with people. In fact I found myself avoiding a lot of things to keep me safe. All the wrong things.
I was envious of the saints that took up a contemplative life. I fantasized about being tucked away in a monastery in the middle of nowhere. I grew more and more frustrated with the day to day because It wasn’t they picture of God and me I had in my head. . .
Of course, this line of thinking is all very silly. I had to use the word “try” three times in as many sentences to explain it — which just screams “going it at it the wrong way, lady!”
Over the past few weeks I have been preoccupied with the Truth that we, quite literally, we live within Christ, and He in us. And, when that happens, there is no way to separate the spiritual and the secular. Everything is with God. For God. Under God. In God. Within.
And in letting this simmer a while that Faith bubbled up the urge to Act, not just think.
I am still finding my voice, and my footing. I’m not shouting, but I’m not hiding either. And those rare moments when I act instead of think or try are brilliant, and warm and where I want like to stay.
Some words that bring me inspiration. Forgive me if I have mentioned them before.
For you did not receive a spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received a spirit of adoption. When we cry, “Abba!Father!” it is that very Spirit bearing witnesswith our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ—if, in fact, we suffer with him so that we may also be glorified with him. Romans: 8:15 -17
“No one after lighting a lamp hides it under a jar, or puts it under a bed, but puts it on a lampstand, so that those who enter may see the light. Luke 8:16