In Matthew Kelly’s book, Rediscover Catholicism, he outlines 7 things you should do to grow in your faith

  • Confession
  • Daily Prayer
  • The Mass
  • The Bible
  • Fasting
  • Spiritual Reading
  • The Rosary

I’ve been working on many of them – some with much greater success than others. But that’s a longer story than I have time to go into today.

In his discussion about daily prayer he recommends going to church to pray for two reasons.  1) church is quiet and designed for prayer, and 2) Jesus is there.

I have been trying to pray daily for about a year. In the beginning it felt like a small, perfect little secret. I’d wake up early, make coffee, sit in bed, say the rosary, read the bible and pray. I was still and silent for an hour that in the past I reserved for doing last night’s dishes or making lunch for the kids. Peace.

But there were — and still are — mornings, I couldn’t get up. Or I found myself planning my day, thinking about work, or just roaming along the internet vs. focusing on God.  You lose focus, you get restless. Your heart grows cold.

So, I’m hitting church in the am.  And it is pretty cool. I feel my heart pound and expand when I am there. I am focused. Stretched. Centered. I listen.  And this week I heard a few things.

“That’s what I am there for.”  A nudge, I think, to remind me that I can’t do it all alone… And the bigger one, “Give.” – perhaps the thing I fear the most.

I am fairly new to Faith. And to Give, well, that’s a tall order. To me, it is a calling to let go. And surrender is commitment.

It’s the most basic thing He asks. And the hardest thing for me to come to terms with. Not so sure why. Control. Romanticizing my current life. Perhaps worry about what others will think. Strangely, love is scary.

I pray that I will be able to listen, see and have the strength to act on what He is telling me to do.

To open the door and walk in.

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